It All Comes From Me
Throughout my career as an artist, I have sought validation from external sources such as auditions, applause, and feedback from industry experts. It is par for the course in the entertainment industry and something that is deeply ingrained in understanding. I have always dreamed of being “discovered overnight” and scooped up by a prestigious record label, able to perform on the world’s most dazzling stages, and be seen by the world as a timeless artist. I waited for others to present a variety of opportunities to me, not realizing that the journey itself was the greatest reward. I allowed depression, anxiety, jealousy, and imposter syndrome to take root in my life. I allowed external opinions and fear of judgment to hinder the flow of my creativity. I hid behind a mask of societal normalcy, whatever that means.
Then the events would come that would shake up my life and force me to want to live more authentically.
Growing up a professional child actor and singer was taxing on my confidence. I was always perceived as the good girl and rarely expressed what was truly on my mind. I was criticized, even at the young age of 12, for my appearance in a harsh and judgmental manner by the industry. Despite the challenges, I always felt that performing was my true calling, and I believed that the negative emotions I experienced were a necessary balance to living my dream life.
As time passed and I gained a broader perspective, my passion for my art grew stronger, and I became adept at following up with the many individuals who offered to assist me on my journey. I relinquished my power to these individuals, believing they held the key to making my dreams a reality.
I didn’t realize the magic had always lived inside myself. Becoming an entrepreneur for my makeup and skincare studio and line has healed my confidence and enabled me to see reality clearly. No one else can live my dreams or make it happen for me BUT ME.
There are no valid excuses, and there is never a limit to what we can achieve. It fills me with pride to write songs that comes from deep within my heart, to schedule and pay for my own studio time, websites, and photo shoots. The gift is getting to meet incredible mentors who shower me with support, and to brainstorm creatively to move forward. This way, I am in control of where and how I navigate my musical journey. The power lies within me. It’s the ultimate freedom to see that that life is truly a manifestation of the thoughts that you allow to go on in your head.
